This last year has been super hard, but the last 3 or 4 months have been especially difficult. I have to say that there is a lot of relief that has come to me in the last weeks following my Grandma's passing. I am blessed that the Lord has given me peace about it and a sense of joy that I can not explain. Oh sure, I have my moments that I miss her so much...that I wish I could talk to her and hug her, but that is apart of the grieving process and it is normal.
My kids are handling her death so differently. It is very interesting to watch them in how they think and are handling the situation.
Caleb has expressed several times that he misses her, but seems very excited about the thought of Heaven. Miss Candi at daycare/preschool, said that one afternoon Caleb was telling a few kids about Grandma Carol going to Heaven . He was sharing about her and about how amazing Heaven is. The kids really listened to him talk about it. Miss Candi said that Caleb was not sad while talking about it, just wanted to share. He seemed very excited for Grandma! What a blessing to have a child that is joyful about the thought of HEAVEN!
Emma on the other hand has really been struggling with Grandma Carol passing away. She has been sleeping with a picture of Grandma Carol and her since the day after Grandma died. Emma has been very clingy to mommy. Wants to be with me all the time. She cries at night for Grandma. She wants to talk about her a lot, sing church songs that Grandma loved and we pray. We have read "Heaven is for Real" several times. Rick and I don't want to discourage what she is doing, because everyone grieves differently. Emma is one that HATES good-byes...just like her mother. She cries every time we leave my family in South Dakota/Minnesota. When Emma loves...she loves deeply. When Emma feels emotions...she feels them deeply. She is too much like her mother! HA! Poor girl. Sadly Emma has got the "worry" gene just like her mommy too! Not a great gene to pass to your kids.
I decided that we needed to change things a little bit. Do something to make Emma feel better. So we decided to send notes and balloons to Heaven for Grandma Carol. Emma loved the idea!!! She was very excited.
So Caleb and Emma drew pictures and wrote letters to Grandma Carol. Then we bought balloons to carry the letters/pictures to Heaven. It was such a great piece of closure to do as a family. After it was all done I walked in the house and cried alone. Made I needed it as much as the kids.
Here are the pictures of our Balloons to Heaven:
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